Hi mum how’s things? Mum I can’t get u out of my mind...I want to phone u for a chat..I want to hear ur voice I want to cuddle and kiss u...It’s only a few weeks away from Christmas, I know u would have ur tree up and all ur lovely decorations...Ur house was always magical at Christmas...I loved coming up and seeing all ur stuff, u seemed to have more each year...I’ve just watched a couple of videos of u and Suzanne telling me u miss me and u love me...I miss u all so much it hurts...I’m crying again...I cry a lot now mum, when I think of u and watching u take ur last breath..I worry when it’s my time to go that Suzanne won’t cope, u know how she puts me on a pedestal...And then there’s Callum he’ll be on his own and that really breaks my heart...I can see his wee face..Mum he’ll have nobody...I’ve got myself all upset now and can’t stop crying...I need to calm down and be strong again because Suzanne needs me...She got out of hospital today after about 6 weeks...She has some major new changes in her life...It gives me some kind of relief writing to u from here mum...Tonight they lit ur star on the Christmas tree in Charlotte Square and I Lit the little candle for ten minutes...I suppose I better try and settle now mum but I’ll be back another night..We all love and miss u all so very much...Thank u for keeping us safe and well...love u lots mum and miss u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx love Karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx